sunflower309 wrote:So today I got my first bare bottom OTK spanking. For about 2 minutes it was the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me in maybe forever! But the sting quickly took over and I forgot to be embarrassed for awhile. I wore jeans so maybe this is the outcome I expected? In hindsight (no pun intended) I have to think maybe since I understand that jeans are hard on a spankers hand.
hi Sunflower,
i think your comment that perhaps you wore jeans expecting them to be pulled down was REALLY interesting. back in my youth, i dated a young lady who i had been spanking over her pants. i had told her that if she committed a certain infraction a second time, i would lower her pants and warm the seat of her panties. the day i gave her this second spanking, she wore shorts with a button and zipper................both in the back

. this was the only time i ever saw her wear those shorts. at the end of that spanking, i promised her that if i had to spank her for the same thing again, i would administer the spanking on her bare bottom. she always wore pants or shorts unless we were dressing up to go somewhere but the day she knew she would probably get that spanking she wore a shift

. btw, it was only about a week after i gave her the spanking on her panties. my point is that girls WILL do that.............whether consciously or subconsciously.
sunflower309 wrote:It wasn't my choice to have my pants lowered but.......I had no choice. I felt like a naughty little girl and the lecture that came along with this only made me realize how helpless I was to stop anything. It empathized that I had no control and overall it was quite a rewarding experience. The description of how pink then red my bottom was turning added to the embarrassment. I was very embarrassed but enjoyed it at the same time. Of course, not at the time it was happening but later in retrospect. I don't know if I want a repeat of this but I have a feeling there will be whether I want it or not.
you felt embarrassed, helpless and realized that you had no say in this matter...............exactly what the OTK position does best in my humble opinion

. did it occur to you that not only can he see your exposure clearly but also he can "feel" you squirming over his lap? i don't know if you saw the reply i made you your last post at my forum in the "resident artists" forum or not. if you didn't, you might go back and read the last part where i talk about some spankees telling me that they felt like naughty, little girls when they were OTK.
sunflower309 wrote:Hope this makes sense to all you spankers how a spankee can like and dislike, and be embarrassed to the max but still enjoy a bare OTK spanking.
Sunflower

it does indeed make sense.................if for no other reason because i have heard many spankees make these same comments. in fact, you may find that that "max embarrassment" you spoke of, is a big and necessary part of meeting your needs because serves to intensify the submission you need to feel

. i hope you will keep us informed on your progress. your trip of discovery is very interesting and i have never had the privilege of talking with a spankee who is going through this process. thanks, phil